But let me tell you something beforehand. The other day I was watching a movie called Little Manhattan, which was about a boy named Gabriel (Gabe) who falls in love for the first time with a little girl. I was like, ha! funny, this kid's name is Gabriel, same as the guy i was obsessed with in high school. And the funniest part is still yet to come....my mother calls me, saying that she invited some young man over to meet me. turns out, this guy's name is Gabriel too. hahahah. he was pretty cool, and good looking, and we have very similar tastes.
OK! time for my obesssion tale!! From the first time I saw him, I knew he was the most beautiful creature I have Ever seen in my life! Everytime he walked by, my eyes could just not turn away. Everytime I see him, I confuse him with heaven. His dark wavy hair, his brown eyes, his blushy cheeks, his smile, his sweet low voice, his stick-figure-like body, his blue backpack, they were all like an unbelievable dream come true. Sooo dreamy. And I kid you not! I am Not exaggerating!
Like the time he threw a juice box he was drinking into the waste bin. I waited until he left, so I could take it with me back home, eventhough it had a pice of chewing gum stuck to it. Idolatrizing this holy juice box, I put it in a clear plastic bag. I kept staring at that juice box in front of me for almost three weeks until I decided it was about time to throw it away. It's just a juice box, right?
Remember the time when he made a poster for his spanish class presentation, where he wrote benedetti's poem about love and he painted a sunset with a heart as the sun? Remember when I asked the teacher if I could take it home so I could put it up on my wall and stare it all day and night?
Oh, my love for him was sooo big that the ENTIRE school knew I liked him. And how much the teased me about it!! Everytime I passed by, his friends yelled things like "heeey katie, guess whos here??" "oh gabriel! look who's there! it's your admirer!!" "heey katie! gabe says he wants to meet you, what d'ya say??" And I never said anything cuz I know they are just teasing me :p bad bad boys...
If you asked me, yes, I have stalked him on internet. He had an account in hi5, where I would check his profile religiously. I could possibly write an Entire biography about him without asking him antyhing. I even searched for his siblings on internet. The photos he had, I kept them in my computer. I glorified them everyday and stared at each one of them at least half an hour.
What? Are you kidding me? I thought WE WERE MEANT TO BE!! How is this coincidence: we live really close, he used to go on the same bus as I used to, we had the same taste in music, we were both interested in surf and skate, we chose almost the same subjects in High School, we ended up in the same university, and his name appeared even in my Alphagettis. Like, c'mon! they were all signs! Arent they???!!
Did I mention that when I got the high school yearbook, I kissed his photo every night before I went to bed? The picture must be all drooled over already =/ Oh what a lovely picture he had!!
And don't remind me about the time he got a gf! Damn, I got pissed mad at that stupid gf. Like, what did you look on her??? She looks like poop with a pony tail! I hater everything about her, and always wished they would break up asap!
Oh dear, oh dear!! And I wonder why he never dared to talk to me. All I ever got from you were the sweet words "Can I borrow the computer from you, please?" I have never heard such sweet wondeful words that went to my ears like music with enya's voice (but male)!!! *sigh*
Gabriel Gabriel, how much like a god u were to me. No name has ever sounded so good as yours. I kissed the floor you walked on, magnified your greatness especially when they call ur name on your graduation day, i honoured your presence whenever I see you sitting on that bench where you liked to hang out with ur friends, i distinguished u among other filthy and childish men, praised your highness like an idol, i worshiped you, and applauded for your charms and intelligence. And all i ever got back were just few words from you.
Now I'm done with my confession. I might neve see this guy again. It was too bad that I had a bad rep back in high school and I was always too shy to talk to him. I have to accept it, him and I would never made it. By the end of my high school year, we were both taking very different paths in our lives. We no lnger shared anything in common. I went to Canada, and he went to study tourism in Guanacaste, Costa Rica. I Guess destiny didnt want us to be together. But one thing for sure is that I can tell my crazy stories about what I went thru.
In the game of love, everything is valid.
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