Looking for "the 1" ...wait, is that a 7? 4?

Someone once said something like this:

"Just because someone doesn't wanna date you doesn't mean that you are not good enough, but because you two are naturally incompatible"

Even tho i dont talk to the guy who said it anymore, he doesnt know that I'm always having that phrase in my mind.

Ever happened to you that, you find some really Really good guys. They seem like they dont wanna play you, they respect you, you can talk for hours with him, he does a lot of things for you, and he Even Speaks French!!! At first when you think about it, you're like OMG! He's Perfect! He's JUST what I was looking for!

But then a rock hits you in the head, and you suddenly think...but, i don't really like him.

How can somebody be so perfect, but you don't really like him? at least not in that way he wanted.

What I believe, is that some people are more and less compatible with others.

You see, one of my friends said that it was not weird that we want to date ourselves, cuz after all, we are looking for ourselves in the other partner. We look for someone who has the same sense of humour, the same taste in music, the same taste in movies, the same interests, and the same personality. At least I do. We look for someone who can understand us. I was gonna say someone who can finish our sentences, but that could be kinda creepy.

So far in my life I have rejected at least 3 people. It is not that they are not great guys. Even one was like almost perfect: plays guitar, speaks french, same major, and all. But there was just something that wasn't clicking. There wasn't chemistry. There wasn't that "butterflies" in ur stomach. I just couldnt see it happening.

Whereas I am looking for a slim body guy, surfer hair, who likes punkish rock, dresses in a skater way, with a Great sense of humour, very positive and friendly, likes comedy movies, with blue eyes and dark hair or blonde, and has a nice voice....im sitting here miserably, waiting for him to show up, at some point in my life. between sighs and frustrations, i let all other boys pass by. but then the rock hit me again!! why am i wasting my life waiting for my soulmate, and at the same time, im denying all the good boys that are presented RIGHT IN FRONT OF ME? it's tough, i dont even know if this soulmate will ever appear. i dont even know if he's even real. what if i finally find him, but he doesnt like me? or, like it has happened numerous times before, he has a *girlfriend*?!

at this point, im really losing my faith to find this guy. i mean, doesnt have to be PERFECT (but maybe close enough?) I am soooo tired of waiting and people telling me "dont worry, hes gonna come sooner or later". this wait is frustrating and tiring. i know its gonna be worth it but, how much longer do i have to wait????

why cant i just find a cute guy now, just for cuddles? maybe to be my date for formal? and holding hands from time to time? someone i could go to when im bored?



Lily and Marshall from HIMYM

oh, breakups!

So, it's been almost 3 weeks my ex broke up with me. It took me A LOT to get where i am right now. From He is all I dreamed of to He is an asshole . From He will come back to me to I hope he doesnt come back . From He's the hottest guy i know to I dated that guy??.

Well lemme tell you something, buddy!:
- You would have never become YFS president
- I hate your ugly mullet
- I hate you sleazy moustache
- You have an ugly penis
- You were right about something, you have a shitty personality. a VERY shitty one
- You are the most selfish, self-centered, rude, inconsidered, manipulative, judgemental, and uncaring guy I know

But I know, deep inside, I want a closure. And by closure I mean talk things up, and getting my shirt and DVD back. And finally I have a list of things I've learned from this breakup:

1) Drunken parties are the least place to meet a boyfriend. Especially when both are drunk.

2) If he wants sex, he has to earn it.

3) Learn to say 'no'. and a 'no' means 'no', not a 'okayyy, maybe only this time"

4) If they just want sex, dump him.

5) If he bails on you on Valentine's, dump him.

6) If he makes you wait for a phone call all the time, dump him.

7) If he tells you what to do and how to do something, he's not worth it.

8) HOT doesnt necesarily mean GOOD.

9) He might use nice words like "baby", "sweetheart", "i like you", "you're beautiful" to trick you into sex

10) If he doesnt care to fix the problem, you can say goodbye to him.

11) If there is anything bothering any fo you, talk it out, and be honest.

And I think that's all for now.